Focal Point

So fellow travelers, after several weeks of unseasonably mild weather, winter has delivered quite a sucker punch timed to hit right at the beginning of  winter break.

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A not so Happy Valentines Day          turned rosy with some photo effects

It started with two days of bone chilling sub zero temps and wind chills, with a side of sneaky lake effect snow bands guaranteed to create thrill rides on the local highways for those of us who had reasons (like welcoming a transport of fifty new rescue dogs) to be on the road inspite of travel advisories.  Then, not content to simply let temperatures rise above freezing, Crotchey Old Man Winter decided to crank the thermostat back and forth so a meandering cold front – warm front border brought us snow, sleet, rain, slush (yes coming down in clumps from the sky not just forming on the road) and more snow. Lather, rinse, repeat for a good eighteen hours.

Worst of all, the light has gone completely flat and grey, so shooting photos of the snow and ice covered wonderland out there has resulted in disappointing images.

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A  favorite trail view looked flat and sparkle snow (the best of dozens of exposures) fell far short of what I saw.

 

I found myself stuck in a grey puddle of mental slush, feeling stifled and uninspired.

And then this morning, while Delilah and I ventured out between snow drifts, I managed to catch a few images, ironically not with my DSLR but using my phone camera. When I downloaded them I found this little gem.

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The joy of getting just one great image after days of disappointment was an amazing rush. Suddenly things on my bucket list which have been missed take on a new life.  A guided birding trip to a local nature reserve where raptors have congregated this year in record numbers postponed for a few weeks?  Great, gives me time to brush up on my telephoto lens skills.  A special concert was rescheduled to next month?  Oh good, I have now have a couple extra hours to edit photos.

Finding the Right Light, feeling joy, capturing the awe in every day life it really is right there if I look.  It’s all about what I choose as the focal point in the lens of my daily perspective.

Walk gently on the path my friends and may adventure find you ready.

 

 

 

 

Hearts and hounds

A wonderful post on the gift of giving love on Valentine’s

One Song

So fellow travelers, mid winter weather has neutralized the sky canvas which inspired so many recent photos.

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Delilah and I scurried along wind swept fields on our walk hoping to dodge the bands of lake effect snow blowing in ahead of an arctic cold front. Now I remember why I usually do not shoot many photos in the winter.

And then I heard the distinct trill of a single bird sheltered in a tall pine tree.  Soon after, we came across a brush pile all a twitter with a small flock of  sparrows hidden within.

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Look closely, you’ll see the brave ones keeping watch as dozens more shelter deep in the brush pile.

My thoughts turned to the way a creative community recently regrouped after a period of contentious interactions with a key leader. It was an eye opening experience which raised many questions. There were few, if any, positive answers to be found until someone opened a door to a sanctuary where all voices would be welcome.

Sometimes all it takes is one person shining a Light on the path, one clear voice to sound the call to awaken. Like a lone bird singing it’s heart out before a winter storm.

The light has gone grey
Despair settles on the land
Until one bird sings

Walk gently on the path my friends and may adventure find you ready.

The Sunday Sun

So fellow travelers, watching the sun paint colors in the sky at day’s end has become a cherished ritual for me.

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In this year of acclimating to being a long  distance Mom to both my daughters, the milder weather has been a blessing. It allows me to tarry longer and really take in what I am seeing with newly attuned vision. Delilah certainly appreciates the chance to roust out critters under the snow as I stand lost in thought.
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Often those thoughts weave themselves into poetry.

 

The Sunday sun sinks slowly west
setting the winter weary woods aglow with golden hope
Distant robins sing unseasonably early
Joy awakens
My heart smiles, knowing
it is Monday morning where you are now
and the rising sun greets you with my love.

 

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Walk gently on the path my friends and may adventure find you ready.

Art Class in the Sky

So fellow travelers,  the sky has been a wonder this winter.

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Whether I’m  lingering longer on our daily walks because of milder temperatures or there is some atmospheric magic afoot, most days have offered breath taking views. It’s impossible not to be inspired by what I see at day’s end.

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I recently treated myself to an impromptu painting class, a Paint and Sip event at a favorite independent coffee house. Attending meant I was supporting two local businesses while indulging in my love for really good coffee and artistic exploration.

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I used to take art classes in the summer. It was a way to take time for myself when our daughters were toddlers. Over the years my art supplies got tucked away or used for school and girl scout projects.

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My finished version of the “Northern Lights” project we created that evening.

The one night art session was so rewarding, I decided to start dabbling again, so in addition to fresh paint and blank canvases, I’ve been collecting images with my phone camera to study and use as references.

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This sky greeted me when I left work today.

Being part of a supportive creative community has empowered me to follow the whims of my creative impulses. I’m not going for a masterpiece, I’m going for experience. I am experimenting, having fun and gleaning some inner contentment along the way.

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A study of clouds, in acrylics;  playing with textures and shades. 

Of course there’s a haiku tucked among the clouds of the sky gallery I’ve been visiting.

Sunlight colors clouds
Ev’ry day new sky paintings
Gratefully received

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Tonight’s gallery: a blaze of colors and tantalizing tree forms .

 

Walk gently on the path my friends and may adventure find you ready.

Running with a Spirit Dog

So fellow travelers, a bit of serpentine luck derailed my plans for an important Friday evening meeting with some new friends.

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A little photo art fun with the serpentine villain of the evening.

 

About forty new dogs were due to arrive at the rescue where I volunteer and I had signed up to help out the transport team greet them. It had been a demanding week at work, assisting students through mid-term Regents exams, end of semester projects and covering a constantly shifting schedule of assignments.  I was looking forward to welcoming the rescue’s new furry visitors, getting them fed, walked and settled in before their big adoption meet ups this weekend.

Unfortunately something called a serpentine belt gave out just as I was coming around a high angle curve onto a major highway. All I knew at that moment was I heard a loud thump, felt a sudden jolt and suddenly found myself fighting to keep the car from veering off the road. I had no idea what had happened. I honestly thought I’d hit a big chunk of snow or ice or worse, maybe an animal. Ninja driving mode kicked in. I managed to hold the vehicle on the road through the curve and guide it safely through merging traffic to the far lane of the highway. By then I knew I had lost the power steering. The battery and check engine lights both flashed to life on the dash board. It did not take long for the engine to start overheating.

*O*H*C*R*A*P*

Time to give my buddies at AAA a call. Trust me between my aging camper and my run of luck with various vehicles (this same car tried to ditch its exhaust system last year while I was on a road trip) I get full value for every dollar I spend on my Auto Club Membership.

Fighting back tears, I messaged the rescue to let the transport team know I would not make it in. When I got back home, I made a batch of hearty ham and bean soup, changed way too early into my pj’s and curled up with my own little rescue girl, Delilah

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Homemade soup, a refreshing drink in my favorite Mickey glass and the company of a good and faithful friend.  Comfort at it’s best.

I slept restlessly, inspite of being exhausted. I woke much later than usual this morning so Delilah was pretty eager to get out to the yard for her morning patrol of last night’s critter tracks.

Steaming mug of coffee in hand, I stood by my ice covered fish pond listening to the bubbling song of the life sustaining aerators frozen into the surface. Hang in there my graceful friends, I thought and then realized I was probably talking as much to myself as to the assorted fish below the ice.

Suddenly, Delilah burst into a figure 8 run around the dog yard. It’s something she learned from Sox, the Shepard-Collie mix who left us for the Great Fields Beyond several years ago. When she first came to our home as a foster, she would sit in the center of the yard and bark with great agitation at Sox when he burst into the outlay running pattern. One day, instead of barking, she just took off with him. How funny it was to watch this spirited little black Chi-mix tearing around with her big brother as they herded imaginary sheep. Resident squirrels would chatter at them from the tall fir trees, birds scattered, dirt flew high until they would come to a sudden stop by the gate, panting and looking pleased with themselves.

Sox died suddenly one morning a little over five years ago. He was not quite eight years old and had shown no signs of any illness at his vet check a few months before. He simply collapsed on the living room floor one September morning struggling to breathe.  Our vets office told us come over right away and not wait for them to open. He died in in the car, his head resting in my lap on the way to the vet.

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Sox,  in his signature “stair pose” photo by Emma Rahalski 2011

I will never forget the day some weeks after Sox died that Delilah first burst into the outlay run around the yard. The heartache and grief from his sudden departure was still raw yet there was Delilah racing around the yard as if he was right there beside her.

And in the very depths of my soul, where truth resides untouched by the doubts of this world I sensed his spirit was running with her. It was a sweet moment and, although not often repeated, it is a moment which brings joy to me often when I am most in need of it.

Thanks my friend for the visit this morning.  Bless you Delilah for running with his spirit and refilling my heart with joy.

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Walk gently on the path my friends and may adventure find you ready.

 

Poem: Target of Opportunity

So fellow travelers, one more connected post to share.

I’ve shared posts from Tom Atkins often, either here or on my own Facebook wall. His writing, both poetry and prose often give voice to thoughts and feelings with both clarity and directness I need. This post speaks to coming through the experience of negative attacks and moving beyond them.

Letting light in requires us to be vulnerable. It’s safer to shut down, but ultimately we have to open ourselves up again if we are going to thrive rather than simply survive. To minister with encouragement and genuine compassion we have to connect with others. The more we open our hearts the more light can get out as well as in.

Thank you Tom for this moment.

If You Can’t Say Something Nice…

Denise is a master at speaking eloquently from her heart. This post says volumes about the conscious decision to be happy rather than engaging in a pointless battle to be right.

Perspective

So fellow travelers, I was working on a followup to my last post, just because there were a few thoughts still rattling around my mid-year exam week addled brain.

I had a good beginning, all about how being in art class reminded me of the importance of perspective and how that’s a lesson which applies in daily life too. I got bogged down in trying to express what I wanted to say without sounding “preachy.”

So I took a break, walked the dog and lo and behold when I got back on my computer I found to my great relief all the thoughts I was tripping over had been gracefully and succinctly put together in another writer’s post of the day. Thank you Lisa Dingle for giving voice to the truth so many of us know in our hearts, feel in our bones and choose to wear as our traveling cloak for this journey we call life.

Which gives me the opportunity to post this haiku I had waiting in the wings

Sunrise or sunset

Beginnings or endings I

still follow the Light

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A little experiment with some post editing effects.

 

Walk gently on the path my friends and may adventure find you ready.

 

 

 

 

 

Letting in Light

So fellow travelers, there are times on the journey when we encounter something which triggers such a strong response, we find ourselves reacting without thinking.

I had such an experience yesterday and it had me throwing around thoughts so distracting, I had to get them out of my heart and mind.  Early this morning, I wrote a post, put it up on the blog and went about my day.  Only something did not feel right.

Posting my thoughts did not quiet the dialogue running in my head nor did it lessen the intensity of my feelings.

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Photo from the original post, feeling fenced in, reaching for the light

It was not until my afternoon walk with Delilah, still so unsettled I was talking out loud to myself (fortunately none of my neighbors were out walking today) that clarity prevailed. I deleted the post as soon as I returned from our walk.

I realized I had allowed myself to post something written from a mindset of angry judgement. I write from all kinds of emotional frames, its therapy for me. I do not believe I should publish everything I write just because that is how I feel at that time. Being honest and authentic does not mean subjecting my readers to emotional bile.

It does not matter how justified or righteous the anger I felt was and I am certain if I laid out the details of who said and did what most readers would agree with my assessment of who was “in the wrong.”

None of that matters. What is crucial is I became aware I had let the situation push me into a space so uncomfortable I was reacting from emotional instinct lacking integrity or compassion. Ironically that’s the same frame of reference the source of this issue was coming from. I found myself in a dialogue which veered further and further from my core values, making judgmental statements void of kindness and compassion.

Even in my worst moments, that is not who I want to be.

I am often amazed, alarmed even, at how quickly darkness can over take the best and brightest of souls. I am equally amazed at how the smallest shaft of light has the ability to pierce that darkness .

Still, that light has to be let in. Sometimes, sadly we encounter others who seem compelled to drive out light not only from their own lives but from the lives of others as well.  Their pain so defines them, they are unable to allow healing or joy into their own lives and cannot stand for others to be happy or whole.  When people reach out to them in compassion, those acts of kindness are belittled, often in ways which leave those who reached out feeling as if they have done something wrong. The cycle of anger and pain continues unless we consciously move beyond it.

We can acknowledge pain yet refuse to let it define us. Shadow gives definition to light but is not the source of light. Faith in goodness is what saves us from being consumed by darkness. Yet there are times when the most compassionate action we can follow is to remove ourselves from the cycle of hurt. When we stop feeding into that cycle, when we remove our energy, all that is left is the original source of hurt. Only then can they begin to heal and only if they choose to let in the Light. No one can make that choice for someone else. We must each choose darkness or light for ourselves.

I may wander into darkness as I stumble through life, but I will not remain there. I will never turn my back on someone truly seeking help, but I will not feed cycles of anger. The time I have given to me is too precious to spend on bringing Light where it is not welcome.  There are so many people seeking hope, searching for joy, eager to find the Light. Theirs are the voices I choose to listen for.

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Walk gently on the path my friends and may adventure find you ready.